Saturday, August 21, 2010

Snippet of My World

I am sitting at my desk, which is lovely light wood and large.

I am facing the window, and on the window sill in front of me is the beginnings of my herb garden: basil, rosemary, coriander, mint and citron mint (lemon-mint?).

Beyond the window of my fifth floor room I see green green green. Trees… the closest I think are apple, and in the distance I see a wind power turbine, turning turning and the Malmo tower.

On a clear day and if I stand in the corner on my tiptoes I can see the Oresund Bridge: the bridge between Sweden and Denmark.

Behind me lies my new Ikea rug full of stripes of different colours and upon it my guitar which awaits my return with eagerness, and a whole lot of clothes I’ve been playing dress ups with.

To my right sits my ‘lovers-weekend-bag’ (for those of you who know what I mean). Yet unused… but she's still looking spunky and full of hope… ; )

My bed is in the corner and a bookcase to my left, full of the select few that made it this far with me, and all my new text books which seem very interesting… to name a few: A Climate of Injustice, Fast Food/Slow Food, Environmental Anthropology, Global Energy Shifts, Economies and Cultures, Rethinking Environmental History.

Under my bed is a mattress that I managed to ride home with yesterday… eagerly awaiting a friend or sista to visit.

The soundtrack of my world lately has been Jonsi. If you don’t know it… GET IT. Jonsi’s album ‘Go’, and Jonsi and Alex’s album ‘Riceboy Sleeps’. Beautiful, ethereal, angelic stuff. Suits trains and planes and the transience my world has been.

I’ve been in Sweden 2 weeks now. There is a peace and a calm that I feel here. Everything has been falling into place. Gratitude. Being in Karlskrona was wonderful. Beautiful to be somewhere so familiar and to see friends so special to me. Was also happy it wasn’t my final destination this time…

I arrived in Lund for good on Monday. I felt a bit unsettled. I went to Ikea…. NOT the place to go if you’re feeling lonely/fragile/vulnerable in any way. Everyone – I mean EVERYONE was in a couple. I wondered if there was an aisle at the beginning where I could have picked up my other half. (Went back Thursday, couldn’t find it. Must be BYO...)

Anyway.

Walking around Ikea. Feeling myself sinking. Thought: ‘OK. Sinking.... Hmmm..... Strategies?!’

So I chose Phone A Friend. Called darling Jess and said: ‘Could you just remind me I’m not all alone in the world?!’

‘You’re not.’ She said.

‘Could you please remind me why in the hell I’m doing this?!’

She did.

In any case I felt immediately better.

My poem from the beginning of my journey came back to me:

‘I know my dark times will be forward as they are backwards.

I know that if I remember to, I will find angels every step of my journey…’

So I said to Team Jayne: Ok guys. I’m remembering. Poetry please!

Soon after I got a call from a girl I’d met waiting in queue for accommodation, Julia. Angel Number One. Do I want to go to arrival day together tomorrow? Absolutely. Was just having a lonely moment. So glad you called. Brilliant.

Got home and went for a run. Started talking to another gorgeous girl. Exchanged numbers. (Spent the morning with her today. Lovely.) Angel Number Two.

Came home and was planting my herbs. A neighbour came to welcome me, see if I wanted a tour around. Yes please! Thank you Angel Number Three…(and WELL DONE Team Jayne.)

Snippet of my world right now.

Love.x